I really like to eat.

I posted this on the lap band board, but I wish that I hated food.  I never realized how much comfort/warm fuzzies/satisfaction I get from eating.  We went to a big hog roast this weekend and I ate well...had a few bites of bbq pork and some green beans.  I was not hungry at all, but I missed stuffing myself.  Sad, isn't it?  I told my husband that the hog roast wasn't as much fun as usual simply because I couldn't eat everything there.  Oh well, I knew the psychological issues would be the hardest part...appears they are.

I remember when I could start eating some meats.  I asked my dad to bake some fish for me.  He makes the most wonderful fish!  He did it of course and when I ate it, I could only eat about two little bites and I was stuffed!  I was so upset.  I didn't want to be finished eating.  I hadn't had anything "real" in several weeks and now that I could I could only eat a bite or two.  I cried like a little baby.  It was right after that I realized how much I ate before and really didn't need it.  I haven't had any trouble with it since then.  I think it's hard when we first realize it but then we get over it.  I have faith in you Denise.  You'll get through this time too.

Love you Sweetie!
Jacqui

I had to pout a little and feel sorry for me.  I guess that's how I got super, morbidly obese to begin with.

OH, I with you.  I wish I could eat a WHOLE something.  I want to be able to take big bites and swallow it and it make me full!!!!  I miss food so much.  I find I am so disappointed every time I  go to eat.  But I am hoping it will get easier???? 

Yep and I've definitely learned that going out to eat is not as much fun.  Oh well, it'll be fun when I'm skinny.

I have had so many days that I wanted to turn the surgery off and enjoy a meal.  It begins to get easier as the weight loss starts to show, when others start recognizing the loss and point it out you will start to feel like the sacrifices are worth it.  In the meantime keep your chin up and know that there is a pot of gold at the end of this rainbow. 


Jeannie

I'll make it.  I'm in it for the long haul.  I knew that I had a food problem.  It was pretty obvious from the time I was a little girl. (big girl).  I soooo appreciate all the encouragement that I get here and I appreciate everyone.

Me too... My surgery is at the end of the month and I am excited about the new stage of my life.  But I know that I am really going to miss somethings about enjoying food.  Good luck.

Denise, I think we're all right there with you.  Obviously, none of us got obese because we didn't like to over-indulge!  And even though I had great success initially with my band, I hit a long plateau because I just wanted to eat more ... I would actually make myself regurgitate when I felt full, and then eat some more.  How messed up is that?  I thought maybe my band was too tight, because I couldn't eat as much as I wanted ... duh ... I'm not supposed to eat that much anymore!  Once I finally got my head around that, my weight loss picked up again and I'm much more comfortable with the band. 

It helps to keep going to support groups and talking with the nutritionists.  I also found one book particularly meaningful "Life is Hard, Food is Easy" by Linda Spangle.  It really addresses why we want to use food as a coping mechanism, and helps you look at the emotional relationship we have with food.

The next hog roast will be a lot of fun, when everybody's telling you how great you look!  Hang in there.

Jessica

Congratulations on  your success.  I'll see if I can find that book.